((((Liz)))) I am just finding your thread....I haven't been on PC for a while...I am sorry I wasnt here sooner to respond

you have a lot on your plate, honey. A whole lot.
I can relate so much to how you are feeling...I have had way too much on my plate, am feeling incredibly angry, and unfortunately when this happens, I isolate. I feel as if my feelings are unworthy. I tried one time on my FB page and I was totally invalidated and practically voted off the island. I shouldnt be surprised, though, considering the source(s). But it hurt a lot. These are people I grew up with

so I isolated even more. And I shut down more. Meh.
I am so glad you were able to write down your feelings and reach out here. And I wish I had pearls of wisdom and a magic wand to make all the pain, hurt, frustration go away, but...
...the wonderful gift we have here on PC is that we have each other...and there is love, compassion, empathy and understanding. We have all of that for you, so please continue to post. And please do not worry ....
...it doesnt have to make sense. You are very important. Your feelings are important. You are valued and loved.
(I am so glad you were able to experience that lil epiphany xo)