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Old Aug 22, 2013, 01:56 PM
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Originally Posted by 1914sierra View Post
You are going to have to directly ask her about this and explain how it is upsetting you. Refusing to verbalize exactly what you are upset about with her just prolongs the problem. What you might do is look at your writings and bring one in that you particularly would like to discuss with her and do that together in session. That would be a place to start and would focus both of you on one writing at a time which might be more useful than having her read through a number of them which might be too much to process at once anyway.
I don't even usually re-read my entries because ... It's just too raw and emotional. Also, I have brought individual entries into session and find that I can't share something so intimate without physically removing myself from it. I know that sounds weird but I can't explain it any better way. The ones I sent were the 3 I had written since our last session.
I know I need to quit being a passive aggressive, whiney little brat. I'm just confused. I've never allowed ANYONY the opportunity to be so behind my "mask" before and it feels like pure rejection & another reason or excuse or whatever you want to call to call, to never do so again. This includes my T, which leaves me feeling abandoned. The fact that I'm so dependent on my psychotherapist makes me feel completely vulnerable. I avoided it. I'm sorry I'm so whiney!!!!