Healing, you are completely right about them walking on eggshells. It has happened in front of one of his siblings too. Someone he is very close to, who looks up to him. I had thought at one point that he felt so bad that he would change but it hasnt done anything really. He has been violent in the past, pushing me and pinning me against the wall, grabbing my wrists and not letting me go, forcing sexual things without my consent but that has all stopped, recently his words and tone of voice and psychological abuse has gotten worse. And I know thats just as bad as physical.

I hate that I have to start over when I put all of my eggs in one basket. I had planned on marrying him... that is until I saw this side. Im glad I did before marrying.

I need a solid game plan so I dont run back to him.

My mom said when she left my alcoholic abusive father, she stayed mad at him. She remembered the bad times to stay away just until she was over him.

I am gullible and empathize easily so I would talk when he wanted and listen to his sorrys... I guess the relationship lately has hardened me. I hope its enough to stay away. I have saved a little $ here and there and have the apartment app. I also have some boxes packed. He knows none of this.
Thanks so much for everyones response. It helps that I atleast have someone to talk to.