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This makes sense to me, neutrino. (And I don't think there's any limit to the number of threads that are appropriate to start. Sometimes we're just in a place where we start a lot of threads, sometimes we aren't. If a third of the front page was only threads started by one person maybe it would be a little excessive, for a few hours before other threads made it up there, but you're not even close  ) |
Thanks. I feel very stupid and pathetic though. I just hope I don't come across as attention seeking. Today my therapist told me he thinks I'm incredibly hard on myself. Perhaps he's right.
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Anyway. I have a close friend who does CBT - he is the only person I know in RL I talk about therapy with, so that's why I use him as an example - who definitely gets to talk to his T about background stuff, even childhood issues. I don't think it's unreasonable to expect that from a CBT T.
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I actually asked my therapist about it. He said something like "yes, you can talk to me about whatever you'd like. It's actually a good thing." However, as soon as I say something I feel like he impatiently starts to talk about CBT stuff.
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Not wanting to change, even though it might lead to a "better" life, is something I recognise very much. I talk to my T about it, and he has told me that it is neither unusual nor weird to feel like that. Change happens slowly, though, and I have had time to adjust to the changes that have happened to me. And nobody can impose change on us from outside, so it's not really something to fear.
Are you sure you're not me?? I could have written this. I don't know if it helps at all to know that you are not alone in this, but I completely understand.
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Ok, so these things don't make me super weird or something? I feel like such a weirdo sometimes. I mean, who the heck wants to be mentally ill? I don't but the change scares me.
Anyway, even though I get the thoughts about faking etc I know I'm mentally ill on days like this one.
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I'm sorry you are feeling so low right now. Could you print out the post you made and show it to your T? It's coherent (trust me, I teach academic writing, I can spot incoherence from quite far away) and might lead to your T understanding more fully what you need from him.
Feel free to PM me if you like.  |
No, I don't think I could do that. He'd probably read it but I don't know how to gather enough courage to hand it to him. What if he gets angry? What if he gets disappointed? What if he thinks I'm silly? What if he doesn't understand?
Thanks again.