I could have pretty much wrote your post.

I'm finding the CBT stuff really difficult and stressful too. I don't have enough trust in my T to be able to really talk to him about how all the CBT stuff makes me feel - which isn't good. It actually makes me feel worthless and frustrated and like there is no point at all in me going to see him! (Considering I didn't want to go in the first place and only went because it seemed it was expected of me...). I already KNOW hot to correct my thoughts; I've done it for years. I already DO exposures for myself and I know where my limits currently are and where I'm pushing them and he wants me to go a LOT further than I can right now. I feel like he wants me to be going so much faster than I'm able to and that he's going to get really frustrated with me. I don't even know what sort of therapy WOULD help, if any, but I really don't know if CBT will be it.

So... I think I get where you're coming from.