I became severely depressed from my trauma, alot of anxiety afterwards as well. I became very weary of who was around me. Always watching my back when I walked, always looking over my shoulder afraid someone would come up and jump out at me.

It took me yrs to recover, and after I did I created survivor sites, one a message board and another website for information to help others. I couldn't do that until I recovered and it took me 8 long yrs to do that.

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I think its very VERY important that you tell your T. My rape even though I didn't know it was rape at the time was with my bf when I was younger, and he was abusive.

What I had to do in order to talk about it was I wrote it down on a piece of paper about the the abuse and the rape and I let my pdoc read it, and she started off talking to me, it became much easier then even though whenever I had to talk about the assaults etc I would talk really fast in order to be rid of it.

Have you gotten into any type of therapy at all? I have only read your first post and not sure if you wrote more as I didn't scroll down.

Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat, hang in there.