Doodle,

I know where you are coming from. I am recently diagnosed, or just recently accepted it anyway, and am on medication. In a 3 year relationship where I have behaved pretty well, no real episodes, BUT in my 12 year marriage I was horrible. Mean, mean, mean, I look back on how mean I was to my ex-husband and I just want to cry. I could never understand why I put him so much. NOW I understand, but it is too little too late. I had my really serious mania during our marriage when too many life events stressed me out.

Anyway, just saying that I understand your feelings. May I ask how old you are, how long have you been on Lamictal? Are you in therapy?

All the best,
Miss Texas