Anna, this is a tough situation to navigate. I am not a doctor, and I don't even know if it is possible, but I wonder if a pdoc would be able to set something up with a local pharmacy to give you a daily supply out of a monthly script. Like I said, I dunno if this would even be possible, but I do know that you can get a smaller amount, like Misskeena said about 5 - 10 pills at a time. In any event, I hope that you can find the peace needed to help you get through this.