I think I know how you feel. My thoughts have gotten more and more violent lately and it feels like they're turning into something more than just thoughts.. the other day I was watching this person who I knew was homeless and realized I was reaching in my bag for my knife, I felt so horrible and guilty, I could never actually do something like that.. I can't believe that I would ever... I don't have advice, and I'm so sorry for that, I just wanted to say something after reading this because it sounds like how I feel, and I wanted you to know you're not alone... stay strong and I hope peace finds you