Yes it is. I'm sorry I didn't communicate that because I can imagine that information would be comforting. It's not fair of me to say that my T doesn't want to be here for me when I need her. She does. I just get really frustrated and angry.

My lease starts in 9 days. I'm starting traveling to Boston in 7 days, I'll be in Boston in 8 days. My parents will be gone in 10 days and I am seeing my T in 11. I wish I could get excited about this but I feel no joy. I'm completely dead inside. I'll feel okay now and again, but it never gets better than that.