I'm hoping that as it gets closer you will start feel at least a little happy anticipation.

Here's a little something I thought was interesting, for myself really but I think anyone struggling with depression and anxiety could appreciate this story...
I'm always interested in hearing about famous people/historical figures who we consider successful who had or have a dark side--some sort of psychological illness. (see list here just for depression...List of people with major depressive disorder - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
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One comedienne I have always liked --turns out her story is not just a stage act (I always thought it was) but she tells jokes based on her struggles with ocd, depression and anxiety. You may know Maria Bamford as the Target Lady from the commercials, but her funnier stuff is her own standup. For a listen--I recommend:

She is pretty successful but even she was hospitalized this year and gave a heartfelt and harrowing interview here...

She is actually hard to follow in the first part of her interview as her meds make it hard for her to speak. However, this interview becomes fascinating as it goes along because she is so smart, funny, dark and insightful. After hearing this, I am so admiring of her.
Just wanted to share.