Ah, the ole 'my family says it so it must be true' conundrum. We have all hit that at one time or another, I would say. Learning that they don't know everything is sometimes hard in the transition into adulthood. I recall when I had to relearn everything I thought I knew and yes, it is a daunting exercise. I also recall the pain. Yes it is a deep down, very root of being pain that can only be described as soul wrenching. Yep, Jet, looks like you're there.

Although I suggest complete honesty with a therapist, I can understand your feeling a need to 'work up' to that. If you need to use this site to do that, seems to me that would be okay. Just remember to be honest with yourself as you post here. That way, when you do contact a therapist, you'll be used to telling the unvarnished truth and it will be easier for you.

As for your family, love them in spite of their faults. They just don't get it and that's okay. You're job isn't to make them understand, your job is to understand you. It's okay if they don't come along for that ride.