Gencat...so many of us have been there. Its an unfortunate place to be, I know it all too well. I am sorry your there now. Think of it as a train that is moving from town-to-town and you just have a stop in "misery-village" before going on to "peaceful-town" or even "pleasant-ville". No single place is permanent...so just get back on the train, hang tight, and it will be moving again soon.

You are important, even if you don't feel that way now. I share your feelings (at times) of being a complete failure, meds have made me gain weight that i am displeased with, and I just get angry sometimes. The worst is when I feel miserable with off-the-charts-anxiety or gutted and empty.

One foot in front of the other...thats all you need to do for now....let everything else go.