It gets worse at night... it's then that the boogey man decides to come and play... I'm a bit scared of what is happening. I looked in the mirror and it told me to get a grip, that I will never overcome him... I feel like Jekyll and Hyde. My mirror doesn't like me anymore, it only has cruel words nowadays... I'm on a lower dose of meds which is obviously not working. I think my doc doesn't believe me and he did it on purpose to spite me. I'm just biding my time before the war. Can I win myself? Will that battle have an end?

It doesn't want to let me type, I make too many mistakes and have to go back and forth fixing them, just like my life. But I can't always get to all the istakes in time, there is only so much time to fix them. I'm falling apart, can't sleep at night, it doesn't want to, but I can't sleep during the day either... I'm so tired. Been watching reruns to make the time pass... Not a lot of things going on here... a bit quiet during the holidays, or have I become an outsider? Am I the one you all make fun of? Do I beong here, or do I just waste space?