So happy to hear that you have hope. That is a wonderful thing. I will say a little prayer that things go as you would like. I know what you mean about this place being a trigger for bad feelings sometimes. Though I have not been here long, I have been in AA a while. In those meetings we talk about being able to share our experience, strength and hope with each other. I think that the same thing applies here. Those of us who are in a good place can perhaps help those who are in a not so good place. At least here I don't feel like an outsider. I am not different from everyone else here. But oops, talking about me now. Hang in there.