We have both been struggling lately, and I understand.
I have not been around much either latley and some of it I have posted in differnt places some I have not.

You are going through a great deal right now with the upcoming holiday, and maybe losing your doc.

I wish I could even try to give you words of wisdom, but at this time, all I can do is give you hugs and wish you peace..

Keep us updated ok

Love to you ..