Allme, I command you to stop this tantrum right this minute!!!! Seriously, take a deep breath and just take a minute. Anything you do at this time, in this mood, will only be counter-productive...one thing that I learned to do in DBT to regulate my emotions when I feel like cutting, etc., is to hold ice cubes in my hands. If gives me the same kind of release that some other behaviors do, without actually harming myself. Can you try that?