How is he treating you? Really? Stop and think about how you might be treating him. I learned a long time ago that people are not going to beg me to do things with them. If I want to do something I need to say yes and do it. I also have learned that no matter how much I think that people should know what I mean, they cannot read my mind. Find something to do other than hitting that redial button to relieve the panic. I know that you can. You've been around here awhile, surely there is something in your toolbelt that you can use? I know it's hard, I really, really do, and my heart just breaks for you because I have been right where you are. Try, allme, try.