Oh, Dear, I'm sorry. I was the very same way on many birthdays of mine. This year, shockingly, being the exception to the rule. I hope you did end up finding some calm in the day. I know birthdays can be hard. Especially with phone calls and interacting etc.

Happy Birthday though! Maybe even give yourself your own birthday day where you do as you want. Maybe then it wont be such a stress on you and you can enjoy yourself, yeah?