I also have no friends but my husband and son, not really friendships but people i live with. I am in the middle of nowhere and asked my husband if we could sell our house in one of my rants, then after making him feel bad about my situation changed my mind as i know he loves this life in the country like setting, lot of nature, but i am more of a city person and miss my city friends. I also realise although that this is the best thing for me because of my illness, i'm schitzoaffective and need alot of time to myself. I just go through the rants when the weather is bad, i have seasonal affective disorder too along with other stuff, and then it goes away after i rant and make my husband feel as bad as i do. He actually agreed at one point, but i now see his point of view, i also don't want to end up in the hospital, but the one near us is one of the only ones i'd like to be in if i need the ward again.