Valex...I have this same problem....the long time of recovery....years. But you are still young. Don't fret over being in your 30's and wondering who would want you. That's really young, and a great time to meet someone with whom you can have a healthy relationship. You sound very wise in your self-knowledge of giving yourself time to recover and heal before seeking another relationship, instead of "jumping from the frying pan into the fire." At the same time, be kind to yourself. You were true. You were hurt, but it may not take so long before you are ready to meet someone again.
Love,
Patty