I'm an 18 year old girl; I've made out at parties and had a boyfriend once, but never gone all the way because I want my first time to be in a relationship with a guy who loves me (yeah, I know, I'm an optimist). It's just that I'm not really ready for a relationship now because I'm still struggling with some personal issues, but I'm afraid if I don't start to date soon it'll be really weird and awkward.