Thank you but it already exploded. My husband came in and I went crazy, I was foaming at the mouth crazy to the point he grabbed me by the neck. I don't blame him really I was being vicious. Now I am calm. But tomorrow I will feel the pain of it. Right now I am just calm and feel like I have let it all out. I have my drugs and that's it for me tonight. Tomorrow I will look at the situation again with hopefully a nicer me to tow. But for now this is me. I told you not very nice. I am sorry for all the posting but felt at crisis point and needed someone to talk to. Thank you.