No, I do not have anxiolytics. I've tried Clonazepam and Lorazepam and Valium in the past - they do not do much. But come to think of it, I need to find Clonazepam - it is somewhere in the apartment - and at least try it - maybe it will help now.

Come to think of it, maybe it was from general anxiety. I have too many stressful things in my life outside of this relationship - I am waiting for a decision from a school, my daughter has not even said "hi" and "thank you" for her birthday present, one of my cats died on Sunday, another one needed a vet emergency visit yesterday - too many things going on...

...perhaps anxiety can spill over. I was just so confused because I do not have any anxiety with respect to the relationship with the guy himself. It is all outside of the relationship (children, work, school, pets... - the whole nine yards). I guess anxiety is a powerful thing that can affect me at unusual moments and catch me unaware...