I feel similar to you...actually, I've given up to the point that I haven't even TRIED for the last two years. But the last rejection was so over the top severe and horrible that I just can't do it anymore. I feel as if it's literally a crime to be attracted to someone and feel an insane amount of shame. And I've gotten way more crap for OPPOSITE sex attractions than SAME sex attractions. Someone figure THAT one out!

And it seriously burns me that girls whose only redeeming feature is that they're "pretty"...and of course that's relative. It's the smart girls...the creative girls...the girls who are more modest, mature, polite etc. who get screwed over. I think it's similar for guys too.

But still...being yourself doesn't work for everyone. It isn't working for me, that's for sure.

I also don't understand how one can love themselves without being loved by someone else. How can you learn to do something you've never been shown? This only applies to me personally in a romantic sense...but still.