So I recently talked to my friend about an issue I am having and she said from the sounds of it I need professional help. This is the situation. My whole life I've had emotional problems from being emotionally abused by well most of the men in my life. A few years ago I was in an emotionally abusive relationship so I sought comfort sexually in other men. I met a man, a friend with benefits, who was very dominate and would smack me around, pull my hair, etc to the point I had a black eye and a busted lip. Which for me was an epiphany. I liked on second thought loved to be treated this way during sex. It took all the emotional pain away for a while, it was a release. Then over the next few years the man I was with at the time never fulfilled that for me. I am in a relationship now with a wonderful man who is dominate and will do things sexually if we discuss them and are both interested in. The issue for me is that being abused during sex is addicting for me because it does take away that emotional pain so that is how I want it all the time. I mean I enjoy just regular sex but not like the sex when I am abused. I don't get that fulfillment through regular sex that I get when I'm abused. I've given it serious thought and really wonder if it could turn into a problem.