I have to agree...it goes up and down...mostly down here lately but thats because I'm having issues with my bf who is also BPD...and my overwhelming feelings of fear that we're going to break up after he leaves from his visit in a few weeks and how I'm supposed to cope with that. Once he said 'why does it always have to be about you and how you feel?' Because, baby, this time its not ME walking away. For once, I'M not the one giving up...it's the person I love who's giving up. So...as I say, it's up and it's down.

I have to admit I at least understand a lot about my reactions before they start although I can't always get a handle on them. That, I gather takes practice and patience. I'm willing to go for the fomer, but I have very little of the latter.

K...wasn't too cheerful either...sowwie.