I'm embarrassed to say this but...I have trouble keeping up my house. I'm behind on cleaning. It's not terrible (I don't have like, bugs or anything) and I'm not ready for an episode of "Hoarders" but I would never want to invite anyone over. Besides, like I said, I don't cook. And there is more to do outside of the house than in; my friends and I always just meet at a coffee place or a restaurant. We always have. I just wish that they'd return the invite, you know? I ask them to meet up with me, but then I wait and it could be weeks and I won't hear from them. So then I contact them again...they're always willing and even happy to see me, I just really wish that they would initiate contact with me.

I don't know, I've posted about being lonely many times. I guess that's not totally the point. Everyone here probably knows that I'm lonely by now. I wish that I could, just for a little while, be taken care of. I know this sounds childish but it would be nice. I have no real close family and, like I said, no support system and...yeah. It would be nice. I think a lot of people here on this forum have at least some place to go when things get rough. I don't. It sucks.