Ah, I see. Yeah, what you are saying is fitting really well with what I have been reading.

I don't know much about different analytic theories... I remember reading something about how there was around 5 or 7 main schools of thought but I don't even know what they are and how they differ from one another.

I guess first there was Freud. Then there was Jung. Then there were a variety of other theorists who have all... Modified (added to, disagreed with certain aspects of) Freud... And hence the different schools.

I've read a bit about object relations. Is attachment theory part of object relations theory, do you know, or are they distinct?

So... Modern Freudian's call themselves 'ego psychologists'?
Maybe I should Wiki 'psychoanalysis'...

Had a pretty flat session today. Didn't tell him that I'd been reading. I want... Therapy to be about me. Me me me not them.
:-(
Yeah sometimes I need to talk about them... But sometimes I don't and when I don't I'm not sure how much good it does to indulge my 'stories'. Sigh.
I don't know if he would be seeing me if it wasn't for them.
I'm not sure that that is good for me...
Need to refocus.
Maybe it is that it is moving too fast...
He was flat today. Caught him looking at his watch after 30 minutes.
But then I was flat today too...
Maybe it was catchy.

Need to go home and take a little nap methinks...

He is off for two weeks over christmas / new year.

Also... Have a friend here who is starving himself to death, basically. I think... I think he needs... A caring t to talk to him. To help him feel a little happier about himself and about his life. Not to rescue or save him. Not to hospitalise him against his will. To talk to him. To care.

Other students here... Are seriously concerned. One guy used to be a doc in the ER and he said he had seen people hospitalised with a greater / bigger BMI index. So... He wants to call crisis services to come and assess him and... Section him under the mental health act and hospitalise him, I guess.

That doesn't sit well with me :-(
(I'm damned sure it won't sit well with the guy either)
Maybe I'm worried about all my past bad experiences with the public service?

I told t and asked him... What he thought we should do... I was trying to put the guy off calling CAT. I guess I was hoping... That he would say 'sure I'll see him' or 'here is a number of a colleague who is really terrific and give them a call I'm sure they would be happy to see him' or even 'let me ask around'.

But no. He said ringing CAT sounded like a plan.

Disillusioned?
Maybe.
(Yeah)
Why me? Why is he working with me?
There are so many people with so much need in the world.
I'm feeling very undeserving and self-depreciatory today.
I don't care if they don't go away. They can have this body.
I don't want it. My only condition is that they don't throw me back out to deal with the world when they %#@&#! up.