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Originally Posted by fshch13
I suppose I'm coming back to this to try to find out what it is about how I feel that I can't seem to figure out. It's been two months now since the day we broke up and I found myself almost crying. I caught myself because I swore to myself I wouldn't cry about it anymore.
I think about her constantly though no matter what I do...I just suddenly came down with mono four days ago and was hallucinating from fever thinking she was there and have had dreams with her there. We're not even in the same country anymore and she hasn't said a word to me but I feel as if I've lost a part of what I used to be. Life is suddenly so expensive and my computer broke, I have to pay for medicine, tuition, books, even a new car.
My life has been rough before, but I'm hitting a new threshold of mental stress and it's really hard.
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Buddy,
Your reactions have been exaggerated. You felt suicidal for a whole week. You came down with mono which may very well mean that your immune system is weak. The mono is so bad that you are hallucinating...
Not good. Make sure you have a good doctor. And, it is better to cry than to try to not to cry. If you cry, the feelings of hurt will subside sooner. If you play this game of promising yourself not to cry but then needing to catch yourself in order to keep the promise... it does not make any sense, and, it would only prolong your suffering.
CarlyleR has given great advice on the POSITIVE things to do.