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Originally Posted by Syra
I think that is totally normal. Are you feeling angry at him because you feel abandoned? (I think you don't believe that, but I wonder if it FEELS like that). or don't feel safe and fee scared when he is gone? It may not be logical to be angry at him, but I thnk it's totally normal, and has to do with some issue of yours. LIke CE said, Ts are used to being targets for ALL our feelings. And good Ts are fine with it and see it as a therapeutic issue and don't take it personally.
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I don't really get why I'm mad - I just am. I suppose I could have felt abandoned, but it seems very ridiculous to me that I should feel that way over a one week break, you know? I feel exasperated that I should have to start over again and that I haven't moved past all of this stuff. I am annoyed that I feel this way and guess I blame my T.
It felt like i went into session with a wall up and an attitude of "See? I don't need you, T. I'm doing fine all on my own." I seriously have been considering that maybe I don't need to continue. I've been fantasizing about telling T next time that I'm better and no longer need him. That I moved past stuff while he was gone and he is no longer needed. I want to tell him I'm done and quit while I'm ahead...