Well, here is an update from my posting a few nights ago( "Considering quitting"), for those of you who care to read it... I was so upset with my T. I didn't get into specifics in my original post but what happened was my T kept the client that she sees prior to me right into the first three minutes of my session. This is not the first time..it happened about three or four weeks ago. We discussed it the first time and I thought that she understood how it made me feel. So it happened again this past week. she told me that I seemed tense and I told her that I didn't like her keeping her client over into MY time. We talked about it briefly, and somehow we got off the topic...I accept responsibility for that,,it was easier at that moment. Later that evening I was stewing!! I was really upset...how could she do this not once but twice?? And she knew how much I hated that. Some of you may be thinking "so what?? a few minutes over is not a big deal". It's not about the few minutes...it is about my feelings. It felt like I was not important to her, like I was insignificant, or maybe the other client was more important to her. And I am learning that these feelings are very deep rooted. What happened triggered these feelings into surfacing. And man did they ever. So last night I very reluctantly emailed my T. I told her that what she did triggered some strong emotions, that she didn't care about me, that maybe she doesn't even like me, that she did not take good care of me by doing that..I told her that she was f****** with me. I said a few more things but I think that I gave some good examples.
So here I am today...pondering over this and somehow now I think that maybe this experience will help me to learn a little more about me. I have insecurities, the realization that trust does not come easy to me, being needy towards my T ( hate that), fear, anger. There is work to be done. A very wise friend said to me " these are very early days". I'm beginning to get it.

My T emailed me back...she always does. She was glad that I shared all of this with her. She was brief.. maybe she does like me.