See if you can let yourself sleep, even if you have to cry yourself to sleep. The world will probably look a little brighter and you'll be rejuvenated after a night's sleep. Good to remember and reflect on the good parts of your visit. With your mother, just remember how you managed her and had your relationship with your father dispite her being there. Same with the BF--remember how you stuck up for yourself and were able to let him go if he didn't meet your minimum criteria. Wish I could shoulder some of your pain for you...hope things do look better for you in the morning.