Your message brought tears to my eyes. How are we supposed to heal, if we never really know the truth.
Regardless of the possible infidelity, it's the lies and deception that go along with it that makes me sick. It's like the person you thought you knew best in the world let you down. It really hurts and he would never go through counseling. He thinks it's not true, he is over whatever he was going through so that's it. He honestly believes he wasn't hurting anyone through all of the lies. Then of course there is that little piece of you that wants so badly to believe he is telling the truth.
Thank you......it helps to hear of someone with similar feelings. This really starts to take a toll on your sanity.