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When I get suicidal there are a few things I do to relieve it. It seems if I feed it, so to speak, it sort of stands down.
1. I go to borders books, get a ice coffee from the cafe, sit in the psychology section and read the books on suicide. I even bought a book written by a psychologist as if he is talking to you. It is called "Suicide the forever decision".
2. Google suicide and read blogs and articles
3. Go to Suicideforum.com
4. Get rid of things I really do not use. Pack up clothes,jewelry stuff that I do not use on a everyday basis. I feel it is less they have to do when I am gone.
5. Write down all the things I would miss if I was dead.....like vanilla ice cream, crisp fall mornings...even if it is silly.
6. Think about what my funeral would be like and who would be hurt the most. The impact I would leave on the living.
7. Think about what would happen if I actually chose to live.
8. Rent scary horror movies
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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