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Originally Posted by neutrino
I don't know why but I never really manage to show what I really feel when I see my therapist. I wish he could see how depressed I am. Perhaps he'd understand how serious this is if he could see it.
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I have a really hard time crying in front of anyone...I had it beaten into me that only bad girls cry and that no one will like me if I cry in front of them. So in most of my sessions with my t, I feel myself on the edge of crying and I start to panic. Rest of the session is useless after that because I'm obsessing about forcing myself to hold it all in and causing myself physical pain to stop the tears. Then, after I leave, I break down in the car. I know this is not healthy, but I don't feel a level of trust and bonding with my t that would allow me to talk to him about this, let alone break down in front of him.
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Originally Posted by neutrino
Anyway, I really hope you'll feel better soon. We have to try to get through this, ok?
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I think we can - perhaps we are both stronger than we believe ourselves to be.
