i have sh in the past and i have had periods ofyears without this behaviour but i recently stuck an auger 4cm into my foot and i have even worse thoughts...i know my thinking is not right but i function in the world and i havent told anyone and i am afraid of giving my thoughts an audience like with a counsellor cos then i might feel more mentally ill than i am...the obsessional thoughts are getting to me and i already feel ashamed