I recently started seeing a t and am now regretting letting him into my realm. Before seeing him I knew I had an anxiety problem and excessive rage. Now he says I am bipolar and depressed. My PCP originally had said he would help me as best he could. But when I asked him to call my t and discuss drugs because the t wants me medicated, he hesitated and does not want to assist with medications. I know it is because he is a PCP and not a psychiatrist but his rejection has thrown me into a complete downward spiral. He has me on Lexapro and this morning I couldn't bring myself to take it. I am self destructing.

The t was rather assertive during our second session with respect to my seeing a psychiatrist. He actually told me he was disappointed because I did not call one of his references. I am not ready to open up to a third person. I reached out to my PCP and the t. Now knowing that I have to talk to a third person also has me spinning. The t has pushed me to where I am not ready to go. And the PCP I thought would be able to help me cannot.

My husband called several psychiatrists for me yesterday to try and find one and the earliest I can get in is a month from now. I know that should be acceptable to me but I feel so rejected there too.

After my second t session I am feeling so depressed. I want to not go back. I regret telling anyone anything and just want to withdraw.