Sometimes things take a long time to see improvement, unfortunately. Maybe you have to jut look at a day at a time for awhile...like, what you you anbsolutely HAVE to do today? Do it, then reward yourself with something you'd like to do.

Don't worry about the big picture for awhile. Let yourself go with the flow,work the program, take your meds, keep your appointments, then see how you are doing and feeling somewhere down the road. Might help.