I am not sure if I should post this or not. I don't think I want people to tell me to go to the hospital.

It is just that I feel weird and Confused.

Late yesterday afternoon after I had been out for the first time since Monday, I overdosed on pills.

When I came home I felt like someone else, I found where my husband hides the Ativan. I took 30 mg. I took 5 of my high blood pressure pills clonidine.

My husband came home about a half hour after this. I told him because I had the urge to take more. The only med I don't have access to is the (Ativan).

He started yelling at me. Telling me I am selfish, on and on. I said should I go to the ER. He said no.

I pass out on the couch holding my IPad. At some point I went to bed. He woke me up and said see you are still a live.

I have no idea why I did it. I don't feel like doing anything like that today. I feel very spacey today, I guess a left over affect.

I feel very very depressed.

is this something I should tell my Therapist (my PDOC won't give a crap).

Is this a sign my moods are switching ?

I started Effexor last week against the advice of my PDOC. Could this be from the Effexor ?