Thank you for taking the time to respond to this post guys, it really means alot.

The thoughts calmed down today, and I found myself in quite a deep state of depression instead. Ive been catching up on my sleep all day.

Ive heard alot about mindfullness, but I just dont think id have the patience to practice anything like that at the time being. Im too tired to even fight it anymore. writing may help, as it helped loads having a mini blow out writing this today.