I'm not really sure why I can't see my replies or if they're event going through but to the last comment, I've tried therapy and medication. Not for what i've described in this thread but it still gave me an understanding of the possible treatments available and in all honesty they didn't work then so why would they work now?

It's really more of a problem with the therapists and psychiatrists out there, they really don't connect with you and understand what you're dealing with, they're really just there to get their pay check and don't seem to care about what you think/feel.. at least from what i've dealt with

I haven't tried to get help mainly because of those feelings towards them but also because i've just been living in a bubble the past few years and really have just been avoiding it as long as possible and could i physically work ? yes i'm sure I 'could' but it really seems like it'll be the same as when I was in school: I was 'there' but in terms of learning and understanding I wasn't, I just couldn't focus because of all the thoughts running through my head and the anxiety, really just so many things at once, too many to list here

i think people tend to look down on others with mental problems looking for help because they don't truly understand what you might be dealing with on the inside, but if it was a physically disabled person everyone would be rushing in to help and care for. would you tell a physically disabled person to get up and work?