Since I've posted so much negative lately, I thought I'd say something positive.

I had a good day today. I went to lunch with a friend which was just okay... I haven't had the best appetite lately and, two bites in, I was completely done, which I was kind of afraid would happen, but whatever. It was good to actually go out. We then decided that we wanted to just be lazy and lay by the pool at her apartment. We ended up swimming and just laying in the sun the whole afternoon. Then we went for ice cream around dinnertime.

I'm sitting here totally exhausted and smelling of sunscreen, feeling pretty okay. It feels good to know that I have at least a few people who want to be around me for a whole day. I think part of my problem is that I allow myself to stagnate in my apartment for weeks at a time and then depression takes hold, I get anxious about certain situations in my life, and then I get in that dark place where I believe that no one cares and then I don't want to be here anymore. Don't get me wrong, this one day hasn't pulled me completely out of the bad place. I'm still depressed and anxious, and my friend noticed that there was something a little off (she said that I seemed to be "very serious" and it's true--I wasn't very happy-go-lucky at all) but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time.

Anyway, that's all.