Today was a good day at work. I didn't have to do much, and got to work with the people I feel most comfortable around. Now i'm home. In deep thought. Have been in deep thought for the last couple hours. And well. I don't know which of my emotions to trust. SH is no longer fulfilling a need I have, whatever this need is. But i'm not so unhappy that I want to kill myself. It feels like a sin to be any happier than content. And I feel ungrateful for being anything less than happy.

I wish I knew how to feel correctly, instead of everything and nothing at all.