Hello I hope you are doing well. Medications can cause memory loss, but since you were exposed to questions regarding your behavior and thoughts, possibly you are blocking out remembering, due to the trauma that you were exposed to as a child in not thinking or believing what you were hearing as a child was the truth Therefore it is possible, that you are afraid of remembering, for fear of rejection or inappropritateness of your actions, and you dont feel safe making decisions, due to the fact you dont feel you can make the right decision because you never learned to make your own decisions earlier in life, due to others interpretation of what was happening in your life when you were younger. so therefore you have to rely on paper and written arrangements for safety reasons in your life, because of a mistrust in what you think others percieve about what you are saying or doing . I hope your therapist can help you learn to take initiatives in your life that are healthy and you start to feel safer in making decisions without relying on paper to be your proof that you are safe. There is help for you and I hope you take full advantage of the fact that you can get help and be helped to feel somewhat safe again and have good boundaries in your life. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia.