Im gonna get blasted for this by everyone else who is drinking the koolaid, but this helplessness is not serving you well. I am sorry you have endured this abuse for so long but at some point you are going to have to weight the consequence with the decison. You are no longer a child and if you want to continue with school and tell your mom to bug off you can, its called loans and I have a sh-it load to prove it can be done. I realize you are not looking for solutions only empathy so I will avoid this thread moving forward, but know that you are NOT helping your cause or situation by acting as though you have no way out because you do.