So...tonight's been super weird.
She's been sleeping I. The living room on the couch---rather than in her bed, so tonight I just stayed up studying - I really did lose track of time though wasn't particularly trying not to...and it was almost 2am when I put my books down. She kept looking at me but saying nothing...I could see in my peripheral view. Then I said "wow didn't realize it was so late! Guess I should go to bed." Got up and washed the dishes real quick from dinner and on my way to bed said good night and she just kinda grunted at me. The entire time she just sat there typing away on her computer...it feels a bit awkward at the moment, but I know it's gonna get a lot worse after Tuesday. Kinda dreading it...but at the same time looking forward to having my house (particularly my living room) back...and having time and privacy to work on my music again (something I can only do when I'm alone bc it's so intensely personal and emotional).

Anyway...I am very anxious about how everything will go and stuff. And if I will still have a friend after this week...

I need to branch out more and try to connect with others...but it's really scary for me. I've been shunned and ostracized from churches bc of my depression/suicidal ideation and my eating disorder.

I'm not good at making friends.