My old t used to tell me that I was awesome, and eventually I began to believe it. I think that if you don't really believe it inside, then its not going to resonate very much with you... like for instance, you didn't understand why she would use the word awesome when you had a hard session. But that's exactly it- you were awesome because you made it through. It sounded like you opened up and therefore, that is progress.

I've had a lot of sessions with my old t that I would label awesome. To name a few- when she surprised me with cupcakes, when she brought her dog to our session, when she looked at me with tears in her eyes and told me she would never leave me. The sessions that I would label as awesome are the ones where I felt special.