Went to my moms house today and she says she will aways be there for me I do my best to hide my sad feelings. I figured out when I told my grandma stuff last sunday she went and told my mom. Which honestly I didnt like. I will share things when I want and how I want . I broke down and cried and mom said that I need to see a therapist. I know I need to. If I ever want to get and help or better I need to.

Later on my boyfriend came over and I just wasnt in the mood very much. I dont think I was that nice. Its hard, I tell him things but I dont get much of a responce from him. But sometimes he asks me do I make you happy? Yes he does but sometimes im just down it goes in waves.

My emoitions just seem to be everywhere today I was fine in the morning and it went down hill after that and now im just in the dumps. I hope tomorrow will be different.