Yep ! I feel a big snap coming on. My Insomnia is out of control .. I have slept a total of maybe 14 hours out of the last 2 weeks, Hallucinations are increasing ten fold ....

I'm in a ugly-ish mixed episode .. My B1tch O Meter is on the rise. Yes I have tried all the typical remedies , took doubles of things to hopefully knock me out.. Yet here I sit wired to the max.

Those of you that know me ... know this is a common problem .. This is when I would sell my first born for a good ole dose of Depression just so I could sleep.

Yes I see my Pdoc Monday... I am thinking its time to switch to a vet and get a horse tranquilizer .. Altho I doubt that would even help.

Its 245am I live in the country Im going for a walk in the pitch blankness I can only hope to fall down hard enough to knock myself out !

Someone take a nap for me. Thank you !

/end rant!